Fear is Desire

I wrote about Dracula. The thing I focused on the most I guess that scared me was his power to control the mind of others. To erase memories. To take control of their actions. To read into their deepest thoughts and know their hidden secrets. Reading this article was so mind opening. I don't know how many times I walk around wondering what my friend is really thinking, what is going on inside my families minds. When that one person you care about breaks your heart.  When your parents leave. When the whole world rejects you. You want your mind erased. Yet here I am terrified of losing, of knowing, and at the same time wanting to know, wanting to forget.

The article states, "The monster is continually linked to forbidden practices, in order to normalize and to enforce." When I read that line I immediately thought of hypnotists. The first time I watched a guy it was funny. No it was hilarious! I could not believe that those people were actually not in control and that fear was diminished every time I laughed. Yet now, the more I think about it the more frightened I become. Knowing that this monster, this Dracula, is actually becoming real terrifies me to the core. Most people brush it off. Its a show. It ends. like the article says, "...story on the page before us may horrify...so long as we are safe in the knowledge of its nearing end." It says, "our liberation." I believe that many people count on that ending. The point where the lights go out and the curtain closes. And true to its word, every time the curtain does close. And even then, all these hypnotists guys always do something to please the crowd. To make this fear, this thing not normal to society, seem absolutely normal and even wanted. They turn the scary into laughter. The fear into joy. The demon into angel.

Here I am. My fear. My Monster. My desire.